Age: 15
Height: 5'6
BMI: 16.6
Starting: 112 lbs
Highest: 118 lbs
Lowest: 99 lbs
It all started when I was 12. I had always been the skinniest and tallest out of everyone. I was skin and bones and people worried about me. I ate just like every other kid though, probably more than everyone else actually. One day when I was 11 puberty decided to smack me in the face therefore slowing down my lightning fast metabolism. I was suddenly feeling a lot bigger than the other girls. I would look at them when we would change at sleepovers and I would envy their hip bones. When I was 12 I moved in with my grandmother where there was always an endless supply of junk food. I pigged out. I ate so much it was disgusting. My weight shot up. One day I got on the scale and my jaw dropped. This HAD to stop. I didn't eat for three days and worked out like a maniac. I lost about six pounds. At this point, I was home schooled. Shortly after this I moved all the way across the country where my parents allowed me to go to a public school (first time in my life) one girl was talking about how she thought she was really fat and needed to loose pounds. She told me that the secret to anorexia is to drink tons of water. (At this point I didn't exactly know what true anorexia was) I knew I didn't need to become anorexic but I needed to loose a little more weight. I started eating only dinner. I lost 4 more pounds. I was so satisfied. I was at 108 lbs, the lowest I'd ever been. I hadn't been concerned about my weight severely after that until now. Of course, I still had the thoughts saying "You need to eat less, weigh less, be less." One day at school we watched a couple movies on EDs. The whole time I was watching I was thinking, "Wow, that's like me." That same night I was searching Tumblr and came across Neverbetooskinnyy.tumblr.com. At first I thought it was an anti-anorexia blog, I was mistaken. I started looking at the pictures. At first I was shocked, then I wanted to be them. Which is where my blog comes in. I made this blog so I could find more inspiration, support, tips, and everything else to help me through my journey to becoming perfect.
I am not pro ana. I am now recovering due to a complicated series of events involving telling my mother about my anorexia. If you'd like to follow me on my recovering/ cute picture/ whatever blog, feel free. http://damsel-in-denial.tumblr.com/ I follow back on that blog, not this one.
Height: 5'6
BMI: 16.6
Starting: 112 lbs
Highest: 118 lbs
Lowest: 99 lbs
It all started when I was 12. I had always been the skinniest and tallest out of everyone. I was skin and bones and people worried about me. I ate just like every other kid though, probably more than everyone else actually. One day when I was 11 puberty decided to smack me in the face therefore slowing down my lightning fast metabolism. I was suddenly feeling a lot bigger than the other girls. I would look at them when we would change at sleepovers and I would envy their hip bones. When I was 12 I moved in with my grandmother where there was always an endless supply of junk food. I pigged out. I ate so much it was disgusting. My weight shot up. One day I got on the scale and my jaw dropped. This HAD to stop. I didn't eat for three days and worked out like a maniac. I lost about six pounds. At this point, I was home schooled. Shortly after this I moved all the way across the country where my parents allowed me to go to a public school (first time in my life) one girl was talking about how she thought she was really fat and needed to loose pounds. She told me that the secret to anorexia is to drink tons of water. (At this point I didn't exactly know what true anorexia was) I knew I didn't need to become anorexic but I needed to loose a little more weight. I started eating only dinner. I lost 4 more pounds. I was so satisfied. I was at 108 lbs, the lowest I'd ever been. I hadn't been concerned about my weight severely after that until now. Of course, I still had the thoughts saying "You need to eat less, weigh less, be less." One day at school we watched a couple movies on EDs. The whole time I was watching I was thinking, "Wow, that's like me." That same night I was searching Tumblr and came across Neverbetooskinnyy.tumblr.com. At first I thought it was an anti-anorexia blog, I was mistaken. I started looking at the pictures. At first I was shocked, then I wanted to be them. Which is where my blog comes in. I made this blog so I could find more inspiration, support, tips, and everything else to help me through my journey to becoming perfect.
I am not pro ana. I am now recovering due to a complicated series of events involving telling my mother about my anorexia. If you'd like to follow me on my recovering/ cute picture/ whatever blog, feel free. http://damsel-in-denial.tumblr.com/ I follow back on that blog, not this one.
curlyhairandclaire-deactivated2 submitted: hey i just found your blog! I'm a ballerina and im 15. I am 5'4 and weigh 94 but im not anorexic. i think im perfectly fine but i was wondering are there anymore blogs like this that you could recommend? I LOVE YOUR'S :)
There’s lots! Neverbetooskinny.tumblr.com, how-to-be-a-skinny-bitch.tumblr.com, beingthinisnotasin.tumblr.com Are just a few. You can look at the thinspo directory for even more. thinspodirectory.tumblr.com/thinspo
Thanks(: You seem nice. I’ll follow you on my other blog (Damsel-in-denial.tumblr.com)
ballerina-beauty submitted: could i see your prog blog? :)
It hasn’t been updated in ages… I’ll do it right now then give you the link and pass(:
Confession: I want to be a model so bad.
I’ve sent my portfolio to countless modeling agencies. I’m one inch shorter than the minimum height so I haven’t been accepted to any of them.
Is there any way I can somehow be a model while being 5’6? I mean I might still grow a little bit. I’m only 15 next week. But yeah, legit question here. Help me out?
Depression is not an act. Eating disorders aren’t simply adolescent phases. Suicide isn’t an escape route for cowards. Homosexuality isn’t a disease. Self-harming is not a cry for attention. Stop acting like you know everything.. Truth is, you don’t know shit.
decadenceisnteasy-deactivated20 submitted: I know that you've probably seen people doing stuff like this before and it sort of seems meaningless to you now because of that. But please know that I mean this from the bottom of my heart: you are an amazing person. I've had a really bad day, but I still have this desire to make people happy and to make their day better than mine was. I just want all the people I follow to know that they are lovely. I follow less than 40 people, so if you get this message, know that I saw something special in your blog and in you, and I took the time to visit your blog today and try to read up on what's going on in your world. You matter. I am out here, listening. Please message me if you ever need me. I hope you have a really great day/night. I hope you go to sleep smiling. You deserve it.
And btw, in response to your last response (confusing, eh?): "all in your head" is still a medical issue. Would he really try to tell all the girls with eating disorders that it's all in their heads and there's no medical reason for it? What about depression? What about schizophrenia or bipolar disorder? Something in your brain is not thinking properly and it makes you feel the way that you do. Yes it is in your head, but it is ALSO a medical issue. He just doesn't understand.
Awhh. Thank you so much. That made me sincerely smile. I really really needed that. Thankyouthankyouthankyou<3 And to all that, ditto.
But yeah he really just doesn’t understand. I try to tell him he doesn’t understand and he just says “Lexie, you think I don’t know. I DO know.” That boy is so stubborn sometimes I wish he could be me for a while so he could actually see that he doesn’t know, and he probably never will…
